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Marie is over half way through our last pregnancy and you can cut the tension with a knife......a butter knife for that matter. She is considered high risk when pregnant, so she's on pelvic restriction, which means we've not had sex since April and I've even been cut off from masturbating. Going through these pregnancies week by week has been very stressful plus our other child just turned two so she's starting with being very ornery and having temper tantrums, which definitely doesn't help matters any. We haven't been romantic in any way because of the urges we have these days and we also find ourselves arguing over the stupidest things. The high levels of stress has caused tension in her head, neck & hips........and I've been breaking out into hives. Now, just today.......I've been informed by her after she went to her doctors appointment that she will need a procedure done called a "Cervical Cerclage" (More info about it on Wikipedia) on Thursday, which means more stress and tension will undoubtedly be upon us soon. Please keep us in your thoughts during this highly stressful and difficult phase in our lives, THANKS :)
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When does blogging become hogging?
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last night I had a dream….I was driving in my silver jag, looking around at department stores in such and decided to stop at this one store and grab two Coogi handbags…one black leather and the other summer beige with a splash of pastel tones on the lettering. On my way home, I stopped in this coffee shop and had a latte with two Splendas and extra cream. I sat there reading a new Joyce Meyer novel on adjusting our attitudes…I love this woman and really can’t get enough of her.
Anyway I sat there thinking about my future plans to take another trip to Puerto-rico and my photo shoot in Utah. I think about my lifestyle often and I wonder why I need it so much. I spanked my first girlfriend at age six or eight at the babysitters house, I’m not sure about the age but it was decades ago lol.
Around the age of ten my step-father put me across his knee for kissing some little boy in the hallway. I remember watching my step-father pick the boy up by the seat of his pants and the back of his t-shirt and tossing him out the hallway. I mean he literally threw this little boy out the hallway on the hard concrete, and didn't care if he was hurt or not! After that he took me upstairs and put me across his knee.
I remember it so vividly but in a Smokey kind of way like a dream. He laid me across his lap and pulled my pants and panties down and started spanking me. I was kind of in a daze and didn't cry out loud, but the tears rolled down my face. Everything he said while scolding me seemed to be going in slow motion. What I do remember most was, it really made me think.
Remember when your parents use to spank you and send you to your room and tell you…” go to your room and think about what you did!I never really forgot about that spanking, and even till this day, if I am not scolded or lectured before, during and after a spanking it really doesn't bring the message home.
Otk spankings get the best results from my opinion for my bratty behavior. Extreme beatings really don’t help me to learn my lesson, they just make me question the spankers mental state of mind. Anyway I haven’t had a good old-fashioned otk in a long time paired with lecturing and I know I need that.
Besides having a bad-temper I am a pretty good-girl. Anyway I realize I am wondering a bit much now, so allow me to attempt to get back on track here.My dream spanker will in fact spank me every-day, even if it’s just maintenance, because I feel that’s the only way to tame this TyGrr. Nothing extreme just a little something to help me start my day and sleep and think about my future actions at night, before I go to bed.
He will be no nonsense type of man, who will not hesitate to put me across his knee at any time he feels necessary, I think this is the only true way I will think about all my actions, no matter how small before I do them. It’s good to know what your needs are, and great to have someone who can fulfill them.
For the past three years I have been in school and most of my classes have been online, so I would say I’m pretty much self-motivated, but there has been plenty occasions where I waited till the last minute to write a paper or do my work. Sometimes I think I work better under pressure, but procrastination is never good. I get B’s that could have been A’s.
If I get a spanker that is not doing his job, it does make me angry, because I feel he doesn't care about my needs and then I become angry and act a fool! If I get a spanker that spanks me only when he gets angry. and I didn't say while he is angry! and not when it should be necessary I get even angrier.
I know I have a bad temper, but it’s really not as bad as some assholes tried to make it seem, lol that statement alone shows it needs work lol, but I can admit that. It really is not that bad if you don’t push me!
Hell I was homeless at age 13 and lived on the streets. I slept in abandoned buildings, trains and emergency rooms at hospitals. I slept under peoples staircases in hallways. I’ve seen what a grown-man will do to a little girl and I've seen what real evil will do as well. I know racism when i have to confront it in all ape forms.
I've been raped, stabbed 6 times, beaten, abandoned and used. I know I have a bad-temper…hell I have bad nerves too. When I was a little girl I use to cry about it when it happened, then as I got older I got wiser and learned how to get myself out of bad situations by using my mind. I had pretty much detached myself from feeling anything at all.
Now as a grown women, when I feel someone is trying to hurt me it makes me angry…I’m not busting bottles over mfs heads, but I don’t take shit from nobody anymore, so blame it on life and their aint no pill to heal that! So anyway now I am not that little girl who used to cry when she was molested or bullied at school because my sister and I were bi-racial and pretty.
I am a grown woman who has survived a lot and I refuse to allow anyone to deliberately hurt me and my first reaction when someone hurts me in any kind of way is silent tears, anger and then either some whoop ass if I can get to them or I remove the individual out of my life. Usually when someone pisses me off I don’t argue, I just stop dealing with them because I know I have a temper, and anyone who makes you that angry or hurt doesn’t deserve your attention in any type of way! That usually makes them act a fool lol.
I have a big heart and I am self-less most of the time, but if you deliberately try to hurt me I go into TyGrr mode. This blog was just random and a window to some of my thoughts and experiences which I chose to share sometimes and hope it allows some of my true friends some understanding about who I am and if it does im content with that, if it doesn’t read again or wait for the next random blog lol. I usually compose these blogs when my insomnia is at work on me lol.
I guess as I got older I became more no-nonsense if that is understandable to you all? Once a person shows me their true colors I leave them alone. I think that is beneficial to both parties involved. Even on ST…I have people that I deleted but still talk too because at one point in time in my life they may have been dear to me in some kind of way and I’m still the TyGrr with a heart that sometimes rules my actions a little bit.
Anyway I've got a busy day today and I should be sleep. Had I received my bed-time maintenance I probably would be resting comfortably right now. Well till the next blog spanko pals….goodnight! Or should I say good moaning!!!!
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Having very little of interest to say is no deterrent for those who wish to say it.
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There's nothing like getting that booty and kitty tore up till your shaking and breathless.
Getting whooped to the point of tears, releasing all your fears.
Being paddled untill you say you're sorry and promise that you will be a good girl.
Getting strapped till you fully submit body, mind, and spirit.
Laying yourself wide open for Master to take you to the point of pleasure.
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Now all I have to do is respond to my discussions for tomorrow and decide what my future plans will be....i have a lot on my mind and i can relax and focus on other things now that my final paper is finished.
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Mabon is the mid-harvest festival, and it is when we take a few moments to honor the changing seasons, and celebrate the second harvest.
Equal hours of light and darkness
we celebrate the balance of Mabon,
and ask the gods to bless us.
For all that is bad, there is good.
For that which is despair, there is hope.
For the moments of pain, there are moments of love.
For all that falls, there is the chance to rise again.
May we find balance in our lives
as we find it in our hearts.
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My niece is starting her first day at University tomorrow,so last Friday night I held a little surprise party for her and some of her friends,including her boyfriend,who will all begin their studies at University and various other colleges tomorrow. Now in order to stock up on various 'delicacies' and other food and drink that teenagers of that age like to swallow,I consulted my supplier. My supplier is a shadowy figure who can supply just about anything at a discount price.In the past,especially around Christmas time,I very often employ his services when it comes to puchasing drinks and food,as well as the odd box of chocolates and winter clothing.The inside of his van is an Aladdin's cave of various items,all for sale at the right price. Neither I,or his many customers,enquire where or how he comes by such items. Jenny knows of his presence,and has asked me not to invite him to our house;but last Friday morning I did invite him to our house,thinking that Jenny was sound asleep after a long night shift at work on Thursday night.
Friday morning my supplier arrived and opened the back of his van.I began to peruse the items inside and chose some soft drinks and a two pork stakes. I also purchased a few boxes of chocolates and packets of Jaffa cakes.I found the price of all these agreeable and my supplier spat on his hand before I handed over my cash. He drove off,no doubt on the way to service another customer. I took my purchases into the kitchen and was startled to find Jenny sitting at the table,tapping her mobile phone and displaying an evil grin. I knew she was up to something. What followed was a lesson in under cover work that MI5 or the CIA would be proud of. Jenny had filmed,secretly, my meeting with my supplier. I pretended that I was not bothered.She demanded that I delete the footage I posses of her dancing semi nude in the bedroom,in return she will not 'accidently' as she put it, allow the footage she has of my supplier and I to fall into the hands of my older brother who is a Garda of a certain rank. I have told her to go ahead and do her worse,for I shall do mine if necessary.
My niece is wondering why Jenny and I are suddenly carring our phones every where with us and giving each other hard stares. I wonder who will crack first? I want something off Jenny,she has refused,and I am afraid that I had to resort to blackmail,but now what happens next is anyone's guess. Tomorrow morning on out commute to the city should be very interesting.My niece and her boyfriend will join us on the commute. I intend to put Jenny down big time.
Have a great week my friends and be safe.
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Working 16-20 hours a day with 3 hrs of sleep a day can defintely take a toll on your body. Im so thankful i was able to get some much needed rest and relaxation time. Hope everyone has a wonderful and blessed week ahead of them.
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Atelophobia is a condition that causes people to over think and obsess over the thought of not being good enough.
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I feel so happy when I make a difference.
Anyone know a good anger management therapist for someone who wants to teach children?
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WHO JUST FARTED?!!!!!!!!!
Have a smelly day - whoever you are (could it be the English)??
P.S. Zim777xyz is VERRRRRRRRY insulted because no one has ever asked for pictures of my arse or genitals. Pffffft!
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Hard to contain
Trying to remain
The woman who lives in the time that is now
For her heart is wild, and beating so loud.
Her actions are tamed
But her mind is enflamed
Thinking thoughts that she never will tell
Her poise is retained
All the while she engages
But deep in her heart, Her primal blood boils.
Just because she is quiet
Just because she is not fighting
Just because she is kind and giving and dear
Just because she's the one who you would never
Does not mean that inside
Her heart beats a drum
that's in time with music
That only she hears
But is all she needs
To fill her pleasure
To ignite the fire
To get all she desires
Her heart is wild like
A howl in the moon-light
Her heart is wild like
A fast running stream
Her heart is wild like
A hunger worth feeding
Her heart is wild
And no way can be tamed.
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Good morning spanko’s….I finally met up with my mentor last night, and it was one hell of a ride to say the least! I recorded the session, but not sure if I want to upload it. The reason is because I became very angry during the session, but I don’t feel I am entirely at fault, because it very hard for me to handle and accept my punishment in the beginning because number one, it’s been a few months at least two right?
You guys know it’s been a couple of months since I posted anything correct? So with that being said, my tolerance level has pretty much depleted! I actually felt like he should have took that into consideration, and when I felt like he didn’t I got angry as hell! I know I’m a major brat, but I really felt he wasn’t supposed to hit me that hard. My response was how I am supposed to get through this session with you hitting me like that!!!!
See sometimes when I get angry I snap!!!! So I did and I was cussing and yal it was fucked up lol. So I was looking at the video this morning, and I was thinking do my friends at ST really need to see how bad my temper is? Or should I edit those parts out and post the video? I guess I’m trying to get you guy’s opinion before I post.
Anyway my mentor and I discussed it calmly after my session when I was whimpering in pain, and I know I snapped but when I go without discipline for a few months I actually cannot handle it and when I get spanked im mad at the mentor for not giving me maintenance during the break and thinking I’m supposed to be compliant as hell during the return, the pain is so intense for me by this point, I really can’t take it….opinions?
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My neighbors son has been gone for 3 years and came home today. She invited me down to welcome him back.
His niece and I was sitting outside when he pulled up. He giot out the car and I about fainted. lol. Oh the Lord was good to him.
His red headed self.
Well when he came to me and hugged me up, I exclaim "HAPPY BIRTHDAY!!" instead of "WELCOME HOME!!" lmbo.
He just laughed and said "mmmm, I got you.."
This red head has me red hot all over.
I want to hand him a strap and bend over.
Lord help me!!!!
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OK...... So I suffer from ADHD and as a result of it I have a mild case of Kleptomania. I was on pills to help with it but my mom took me off her insurance because she said I'm grown now and I can't afford them at this point. With that said I "Feel" as if I need to punished when I do take things at times it hasn't gotten really out of control yet but I don't want to end up in jail. My mom use to wear my butt out when I got caught taking things that plus the meds kept it under control for years but now I'm older and I live in a dorm there no mom here I really on my own. I don't want people to think Im so kinda crazy sex freak I not into that type of thing at all It not about sex I just want to be better and not know as the girl who steals. I just need a real life butt beating that will bring me back to real life please don't judge me I'm just being honest. Thanks for listing to me
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It was a spanking BBS in Los Angeles in the early to mid '90s - I believe the board was located in the Valley. My wife and I were regulars there in the early days of our relationship. I wish I could find some of the stuff I posted there. I'm sure it's somewhere in that mountain of floppy disks I've been hauling around for far too long. Can you even get a drive for the 5 1/4 ones anymore?
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I posted a video and I'm excited. I know its probably sideways, but its up.
And I'm happy. Any tips would be appreciated.
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Last Sunday my niece asked me to give her a spin to the next village to meet some friends who will be attending University with her.Jenny assured me that she would do some tidying around the house and when I got back we would go for some lunch. My niece and I popped in the car and off we went. After dropping my niece off I decided to give Jen a ring to see if she wanted me to bring her back anything,there was no answer. I began to drive back to our house using my hands free phone kit,in case there are any Garda reading this post,to ring Jen again.I tried to ring her mobile and the house phone,but to no avail. I was beginning to worry. I reached the house and drove up the drive way to the sound of very loud music coming from upstairs,our bedroom to be exact. I entered the house and called for Jen;no response. I called again.I ran upstairs, the door to our bedroom was open and I was met with the most horrible,hideous and shocking sight I have seen in a long time. A sight so dastardly that my eyes began to ache.I felt like screaming out in excrutiating pain but I thought better;instead I took out my mobile phone and began to record the sight,the sight of Jenny dancing!
Now Jenny does not really dance: what she calls dancing most other people would call a convulsive fit.I stood and watched,unnoticed,as Jen,partially nude shook her head and jumped around to the sound of a 'song' I have heard her play too often,"Starlight" by Muse. I was standing in the doorway recording this event and not once did Jen look towards the door.The next song on her CD began to play and events took a turn for the worse as Jen began to 'sing'. It was more like a cry for help. Now,at this point I should have announced myself but Jen went to our walk in wardrobe and began to go through my clothes.She put on a blouse I have and began to check herslf out in the mirror.I had enough. I entered the room and switched off the music player. Jen spun around and I started to laugh.I asked had she finished the household chores but was met with a barrage of abuse.I was ordered to hand over my phone and I reminded her that she was not at work now. I ran down the stairs chased by a semi clad Jenny.Justin,our dog,began to bark and as we reached the kitchen our door bell rang,you might say I was saved by the bell.
I still have the footage of Jen on my phone and I have even uploaded it on my computer.Alas I am not evil enough to upload it on here,instead I will bide my time,there is something I want off Jenny and the footage I have will be used to get what I want. I will keep you all posted!
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I have not had any problems with insomnia in 9 months. So why tonight? I have to be up at 5:30 and at work at 7:00, then another job around 10:00. GRRRRRRRR!!
I made a self-spanking video, but I've no way to post it, due to my computer died last summer, and I've not been able to replace it. :-(
I warmed up with my brush, then used my belt and the buckle, ending with the paddle. I'm not sure exactly how many licks with each implement I gave myself, but the video is 16 minutes.
Well guess I'm going to try and get to sleep. I think I know what needs to be done.
Masters PlayGround ..